Challonge accepted

Ok, so it's not really a challenge that Donwill presented on his blog, but more so an opportunity for me (and others) to document and share my year, all its mundanities and bright moments, one day at a time.

Feel free to follow me (hopefully I'll make it to a year) over at 365ers.com.

Oh by the way, Hello. How are you? Long time no speak.

I realized in creating a profile for the site, I should use the domain I pay for (ampersandjones.com... this space) more regularly.
I've fallen in like with the ease of tumblr, meanwhile this poor blog just sits and waits for me to say something substantial.
Something related to my music career.
I've placed too much importance on posting, forgetting about the importance of just being around.

Anywho.

Happy New Year. Come look for me somewhere on the interwebs.

© Ashleigh Reddy Photography for Vashluv's "Lipshitz" series.

#PROGRESS

(click to play, obviously)

Comments are OFF, again.

Why do people/companies SPAM still?

I must admit, the new school spammers are getting crafty. Doing that I'll draw you in by saying something that looks semi relevant to the post then immediate HARD sale and link.

Who falls for that?

Anyway. Tired of cleaning up after all that mess.

If you wanna talk to me/make a comment, go ask me something on Tumblr.

Sidebar

I'm cheating on you.

Find me for mid range blogging over at:

ampersandjones.tumblr.com

Funny, she looks just like Nicole to me

2009 © Dennis de Groot

Can't remember who asked recently, but I was questioned about Ampersand Jones.
Whats her M.O?
Where'd she come from and why is she here?

I couldn't answer anymore.

To be truthful, Amp Jones popped up right as I entered a heavy (no pun) personal growth period.
The alias afforded me freedoms that I didn't realize were waiting for the taking. With her, I split my already fractured personality and creative vision. Let her lip pop on her own blog (since closed)** and lived in both reality and fantasy.

Amp Jones is 3 years younger than I am. She even had a different voice. That's... special.

I blame the "industry".

Anywho, along the ride, I decided Amp would be an artistic outlet. Pictures and stuff. Concept shoots and things with photographer friends.
That will happen eventually, but my drive behind that venture stalled after finances and life took precedence.

Now Ampersand quietly sits in her corner, becoming just another handle online, adding to identity confusion. (Are you Amp Jones/N./N. icky/Nicole?)

Sort of want to be Nicky again. Well, not like I ever stopped being me. Not like I'm really abandoning Ampersand Jones. I'm just proud to be ME again.

A woman of many faces. Ideas. Names. Dreams. Facets. Etc. Etc. Etc.


** While Sanderson's Blogspot is long gone, feel free to visit my old myspace blog. If you wish.

Will i still love me tomorrow?

2006 © Anna Keenan Photography

Quick thought.

(future) Mothers, love yourself now.
Your body image and the actions you take to care for yourself, speak louder than telling your (future) daughters they are beautiful & perfect just the way they are.

I realized recently that I do not want to spend the rest of my life envying my old self, romanticizing my physical condition from as little as 5 -10 years ago.

With each decade that passes, the person I was, always seems "perfect".
So if that's so, future me says I'm perfect right now.
Physically.

Just hope I'll still feel this way, tomorrow.

its a pattern

i disappear. i come back. i disappear again.

I'm speaking about my online presence but it surely carries over to my "real" life.

Its a terrible habit that just confirms the worst in me.
Each time I leave for a number of reasons that guarded Scorpio me will not share.
Ironically, each time I return its with a renewed spirit and a resolution to let people in.

Will I do it this time? Will I keep up with letting my guard down?

I've got some thoughts kicking around my mind. Questions and new paths to walk.
Will I document it? Here? Should I jump ship over to a Saved Space I have on tumblr?
Kinda tired of Bloggers layout.
Layouts don't matter much.
Just feels antiquated.
We'll see.

I'll try a little better.