my heads up my ass

This entry's pretty random and rambly. Read on with caution.

its been weeks since i've been online. like REALLY online. This pearl has lost it's luster. It bothers me though, that there are digital bits of me floating open ended, never resolving... and that this is the way of our new world.
I read an article suggesting the best way to build your online persona, for publicity reasons, is create as many personas any and everywhere... so at the least there's a digital breadcrumb trail back to you.
bull. Its the fastest way to madness.
At the height of my insanity, i did all i could to maintain all of HEAVy's portals... constantly updating information on myspace and last.fm... writing updates on the actual website we used to own. swinging by imeem... uploading to youtube and upkeeping my personal pages...
i can't even remember my routine. it feels so long ago.
and just like that, overnight, myspace became redundant and i added a facebook page and a page for HEAVy and *POP* the bubble burst. And i gave up on it all.

my dear blog, you got caught in the crossfire.

Did you guys even know i had another blog? A more personal one? That actually was more popular than this one?

I know some of you know and miss Sanderson's blog, and at times i think about resurrecting it, as it documented in real time such an amazing growth period, but it's all too personal. and i had a lot of hidden messages in it that once I closed it to public eyes, i reset the font colors and now to reopen the doors... would be a sexy mess.
a real sexy mess.

but back to the head up the butt thing.
my virtual life is suffering while i figure out and settle up in my real life.
And while i could take note and take pictures of every little thing i think and do... i won't.
i think about all the opinions and blogs (i'm sure i've said this all before) floating about. All those pointless opinons. Wordy wordy pointless opinions.
is mine really that important?